...rina.da.happi.hamster...

[::i found i couldn't go back to the times when i had not known you::]

Saturday, March 31, 2007

最愛的朋友<3



friday nite out~
lectures > prac > shopping > dinner > afl > supper...
waa... hard schedule.. but it was fun~~~*

4 more uni days till holiday.. finalli get to take rest!

「朋友是一輩子的。」我是很認同這一句話。人與人相遇的機率已經很少﹐能相遇進而成為朋友﹐並不需要繁複的計算程式。不是一週裡面見面日子的多寡﹐不是認識這人的年資有多長﹐當朋友是沒有累積獎金的。一切都是緣﹐搭上了便搭上了﹐命中自有注定。

>>「唉﹐真冤孽。」這句我也笑著跟朋友說過。

那麼﹐誰才是你真正的朋友???
我的分辨方式很簡單﹐當你能在介紹對方的時候。很自然或自豪地說一句「這位是我的朋友某某。」那一個便是了。
不要少看「我的朋友」這四個字的威力。當然也可以互換成為我的阿爸阿媽阿哥阿妹大佬細佬阿仔阿女的家屬匿稱。這些統共都是你的真朋友。
為什麼這樣說呢?你可曾有過跟人說﹕「這是我的"同學"某某」?或是同事﹐老師﹐團友﹐朋友的朋友﹐朋友的兄弟姊妹... 除了是當你要跟爸媽解釋這位是誰人以外。那種隔了一重的稱呼﹐ 便說明對方跟你有多接近。
以前好像也寫過一篇﹕你叫我什麼名字。裡面說的便是假如你現在叫我一個怎樣的匿稱﹐便希望會一直這樣的叫我。當關係改變了的時候﹐同樣的稱呼﹐便像是被下了魔法一樣﹐怎樣也再說不出口。所以﹐當你能介紹一個人為你的「朋友」時﹐那也有同樣的魔法印證了彼此的關係。
你是我沒有血緣但卻很有緣的兄弟﹐或姊妹﹐我的家人。
你會問﹐那也不過是"希望"能當上一輩子朋友。不竟一切都逃不過改變的一天﹐昨天是知己﹐今天可能反目。就算不至於如此極端﹐但是關係放著會慢慢變淡﹐淡如水。這情況彼彼皆是﹐你遇到過﹐當然﹐我也遇到過。
那還能說「朋友是一輩子的。」嗎?
相信我﹐是一輩子的﹐是一輩子的。就算淡了﹐就算反目了﹐就算成敵人了﹐都還是一輩子的朋友。曾經的相知相交﹐曾經牽手拼肩走過的街道。曾經聽過最心底的話﹐曾經看過最真摯的笑。曾經一起的喜怒哀樂﹐曾經的溫暖﹐還有傷痕。這些種種的「曾經」﹐抹不去﹐洗不掉。只是現在﹐把一切想跟對方說的話﹐都收進心底裡面而已...
>>「你這一刻還好嗎?」
>>「你現在在做什麼?」
>>「你還記得從前嗎?」
>>「你還會想見面嗎?」
相見無話﹐但在心裡﹐你還是我一輩子的朋友。其實﹐我們都是不記仇的﹐我們顧的是顏面﹐是一口氣。假如人生只有一次相遇的機會﹐。那麼﹐能重遇更是多麼的難能可貴...
那怕再見已是敵人﹐只要一切還好。
「唉﹐真冤孽。」我有時候﹐也會這樣子嘆息著。

Monday, March 26, 2007

21st*

ふるえている私の手にはじめて君が触れて,
優しい気持ち,温かさにやっと気づいたんだ

閉ざした窓開ければ 新しい風吹いた...o

笑って,泣いて,君と出会えて,
見える世界は輝きだした...
ひまわり揺れるタイヨウの下で
感じていた風を君を...o

信じるとこ、迷うことも立ち止まることも
全部 私が今ココで生きてる答えかもしれない...o
モノクロの毎日が,色づいてゆくようにo

笑って,泣いて,君と出会えて,
続く未来は輝いていた...o
ひまわり揺れるタイヨウの下で
私のまま 明日を歌うよ...o
限りある日々を,止まらない時間を
どれだけ愛せるかな?愛せるよね?

君がいれば 光さえも そらさないで...

笑って,泣いて,君と出会えて
続く未来は輝いていたo
ひまわり揺れる タイヨウの下で
私のまま明日を...o

ありがとう...
伝えたい...
今ならいえるよo

過ごした季節も忘れはしないよ...o

Friday, March 16, 2007

三月。

compare to last year this time... i think im in alot better condition.. (yah..more healthy too!) no family mess.. no friend mess.. no crying everyday... and no more being cheated & lied every single day with full of bullshits and talk-way-through-crap...

i dun think ive never been hurted by anyone as much as last yr and i hope i never will be. and i dun think i can ever love/trust anyone the way how i used to be.. ill always be afraid to see someone deeply.. ill always be scared of the time ill get betrayed. more than happiness, scared of being left behind, scared of being used, scared of getting hurt. how sad is dat? you love someone, but cant believe in her/him.. dont know wats going on in her/his mind.. i just forgot how to believe in someone. i never knew.. it takes this long to forget how you got hurt.. its always has been some i trusted and believed in that hurted me the most.. coz u care for them and they use ur caring, when they dont need u, then theyll just walk away from you.

all ive been wishing for was to trust someone once again. someone i can open my heart to. someone i can show all of myself to. someone that can heal my past wound. someone that i know will never chose to leave me. someone that i can forget abt being scared to love or trust.

now im gaining bak the confidence of myself trusting a friend. a good friend.. best friend, best cousemate buddy, my twin sister & my savior. its quite true, friendship doesnt change if its real.. whereas relationship changes. no matter how stupid or crazy or risky it is, friends can always be unrealistic and support each other. friends can understand when you talk, friends can be there for you when you need someone, friends are always the first to rely on.

i treasure every thing god has been giving me back.. yes, all the suffering last year has made me a bit stronger and weaker at same time.. but he knew i can live through that path he chose for me to take, he gave me a challenging path to make me learn something from the pain.. so, im realli happy now.. with particular someone i really like and care always being there for me... with crazy 2 housemates that brightens my days at home.. and with understanding friends always around me.. with best coursemates who we are surviving together (8am-5pm class!!)... :)














i wont ask for more..

i just want this to not get destroyed..



i dont want anyone leaving from my life anymore...
god bless.