eve-eve.

a person can apologize endlessly and even if you forgive them, sometimes you cant forget the pain they caused you. & it gets hard to trust anyone when everyone you ever open your heart to lets you down... i was fine until you walked into my life...

あの日, あの時, あの場所で君に会えなかったら僕らはいつまでも見知らぬ二人のまま・・・

enuf said.

happi xmas-eve -eve by da way :)

i.believe.

この胸の中に隠れてる不安の渦、目の前にある自分の進むべき道はどれか
人に流されてた日々。そんな自分に「さよなら」。
i believe myself　信じることで、すべてが始まる気がするの。
i believe myself　暖かい光は間違っちゃいない。歩いていこう。
i believe...
偽りの中でうその笑み浮かべて、生きる人を幼き自分と重ねてみてため息つく。
どんな色にも染まらない「黒」になろうと誓った。
今目に映るこの広い空も、素直に生きるこの気持ちも。
i believe myself　信じることで、すべてが始まる気がするの。

最低なことしてくれたじゃん。おかげでまた人を信じれなくなった・・・
人じゃない、人の気持ち、人の言葉が信じれない。なんで？気持ちってそんなにすぐに変わるもの？気持ちがない言葉そんなに簡単に言えるものなの？最低だよ、、人の気持ち持ち遊んで。。。だから。。。顔も見たくないと思ったの・・・声も聞きたくない・・・会いたくなんてない・・・そう思うのに、実行できない・・・　そうやって思えば少しでもましになるかと思ったのに！会いたくて会いたくて仕方ないよ。一日話ができないだけで寂しくて寂しくて。。。気がないのならやさしくしないでえぇ・・・！！

早く忘れたい・・・人を信じれないままなんていや。。。。

...

dont cry because its over.
smile because it happened.

:)

miss you all...

shud.not.

we shudnt have met that day,
we shudnt have talked that day,
we shudnt have stayed together that day,
we shudnt have ...

why is fate so harsh on us..

its gonna hurt both of us...

so maybe...maybe.

it was good that we are finally separated by distance...

its so ironic that...

it started away from melb...

and it ended away from melb...

bye.bye.melb~!

going home☆ (at midnight today...)
melbourbe>>singapore>>shanghai

saw midori off just now............ asuka & kaori & keiko came too*
all of us stayed up until about 5AM packing or drinking...
and woke up at 7AM to see her off... SO SAD... shez not coming bak...
aggggg... i dun want this... when i come bak next year... no onez here!

last few dayz have been so much fun....!!
im sure ill miss everything!!
*shopping* *mango!!* *drinking* *breakfast pancake* *bruinswick.st.* *dinner* *hot.chocolate* *night.market* *shoya*







kana & kaori~


midori & maori~


alan & rina =)







aggg.. in few hours... im gonna be in freezing shanghai...!
and its getting hotter here... no summer again this year!!

how?

been a while since we stopped seeing each other... maybe more than a week...? which never happened before...

cooked n came over for dinner.. (dinner was so nice by the way.. ) in the tiny room of GC.. laying around in the bed and~ sitting on the carpet~ maybe just chatti4was nothing special..

on and on until 3am non-stop talking... surfing the net... laughing abt random stuff... making fun of our teammates... telling each otherz high school life... so much we talked abt,

including when we met... the nite i stayed over... the nite we snack out from hotel... everything we shudnt have done and one thing that i tryed hold on to...

the time passes by so quick when im with u,

its too much of fun staying with u,

i cant hold in my feeling, its so hard to stop...

so how rina... wat to do now...? so how...?

あなたの気まぐれにあたしは一喜一憂浮いたり沈んだり・・・

悲しいことも、泣くこともあるでも 嬉しいことも、楽しいこともある

だから あなたから離れられない・・・

でもはなれないとダメになる。私はもう耐えれないから・・・