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many ppl has been telling me i look more happier and 'lively' after a week in adelaide...
yes... defintely... for many many reasons...
released from suffering pain and stress completely... intensive days of assignments/ classes/ works ofcourse... and after all the ignorance by who i thout was my best friend and she continuously treating me as if i never exist in her sight... now i realise and knows the meaning of what other ppl told me about her: forget abt her, u got a better ppl to care for.. yah.. i guess its true, why shud i care for someone that doesnt care abt me.. and ofcourse since i had to still deal with someone who onli knows to break promises...
i was almost hitting da pt where i dun wanna deal with any of these crap...
and at the best timing aug06 came..
6nights 7 days of no bad things... no stress from studies... no pressures from anyone...
sure there were moments full of pressures and stress over losing, but come on.. its a sport competition, what it matters is that we did our best without giving up and got 3rd. what was important was we played by whole with strong bonds.. the respect between teammates and need for each other,its something that is slightly different from normal friendship.. sharing the same tears, sharing the same victory, sharing the same difficult times.. and at the same time, pumping up each other, encouraging and cheering each other.. i was saved by so many of "shake it off, erina. ".. being new to team, i was scared i wudnt be a much of help, but none of the seniors or even other freshers were like that..
i realli did recieve alot from this trip to adelaide... it was something that i wanted and wanted so badly for so long.. somewhere i can belong and at that place, fully be able to express myself and being accepted...
and someone who i can stay with and be happy with.. and let me out of this darkness, pull me out to the shine... someone that can accpet me... could be the one.. maybe someone that is able to open up my heart with no fear...
can i..?
wud i get hurt if i try to love u...?
maybe i will... like always... but i dunno whats so special abt u...
yes... defintely... for many many reasons...
released from suffering pain and stress completely... intensive days of assignments/ classes/ works ofcourse... and after all the ignorance by who i thout was my best friend and she continuously treating me as if i never exist in her sight... now i realise and knows the meaning of what other ppl told me about her: forget abt her, u got a better ppl to care for.. yah.. i guess its true, why shud i care for someone that doesnt care abt me.. and ofcourse since i had to still deal with someone who onli knows to break promises...
i was almost hitting da pt where i dun wanna deal with any of these crap...
and at the best timing aug06 came..
6nights 7 days of no bad things... no stress from studies... no pressures from anyone...
sure there were moments full of pressures and stress over losing, but come on.. its a sport competition, what it matters is that we did our best without giving up and got 3rd. what was important was we played by whole with strong bonds.. the respect between teammates and need for each other,its something that is slightly different from normal friendship.. sharing the same tears, sharing the same victory, sharing the same difficult times.. and at the same time, pumping up each other, encouraging and cheering each other.. i was saved by so many of "shake it off, erina. ".. being new to team, i was scared i wudnt be a much of help, but none of the seniors or even other freshers were like that..
i realli did recieve alot from this trip to adelaide... it was something that i wanted and wanted so badly for so long.. somewhere i can belong and at that place, fully be able to express myself and being accepted...
and someone who i can stay with and be happy with.. and let me out of this darkness, pull me out to the shine... someone that can accpet me... could be the one.. maybe someone that is able to open up my heart with no fear...
can i..?
wud i get hurt if i try to love u...?
maybe i will... like always... but i dunno whats so special abt u...
posted by rina @ 3:33 PM
5 Comments:
At 8:32 AM,
Anonymous said…
dont bother with people that break promises or best friends that dont talk. in the end, if they are your friend - they will make the effort, as much as you put in the friendship.
just be happy. and forget the past. look at the present and future and remember, theres a brighter future for you. nothing can hold you down.
you will find that special someone someday. and when that day comes, you'll know it. you'll be happy. you'll be set free. you'll be spectacular. you'll be a shooting star.
the day will come. just put a little faith in your brighter future and fate will follow.
everyday is a new adventure. everyday is a chance for change.
everyday will be brighter
At 4:41 PM,
Anonymous said…
hey, the anonymous.. is this the same old gurl? if u are, just leave ur name alright :)rina wasnt angry with u to start with, alrighty? its nice of u to give her all these comments :) be proud lah.
and YOU RINA, she is right, dont bother abt someone that doesnt care, ppl who love u will neve leave you! like moi :) yah?
OH!! where is my story!!!!!!!! i havent heard about the wed story yet yah? wel, i knoe u are gonna b bz with ur exam on mon, maybe come online after ur test! :) ttyl. god bless you! mwaksss luv u hun. ~aileen~
At 3:14 AM,
rina said…
haro haro ail~~
sorri for da late update...but i realli hav no time nowww!!
afta monday i promise!
therez toooo much to tell... haha
At 8:40 PM,
Anonymous said…
Hey, how is studying going? Nice talking to you in 'your' morning.
Jeez, crazy girl.. up from 5:30AM till 2AM. Shit manh, Get some sleep after your test. Never seen anyone as dedicated as you for ANIMALS. LOL. All the best rina. You will do fine!
At 6:41 AM,
Anonymous said…
nah..im not that girl.. >_<;; im a guy. well... just a random passing by... leaving a comment. she seemed really depressed and i know shes on the brink of recovering slowly. just more times.. and more AUG competitions and she'll be fine =)
...ill leave my name if i do post other msgs in the future.. sorry if i offended you rin..
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