...rina.da.happi.hamster...

WTH~..ihatethesekindappl..

2008-04-13T01:17:00.000-07:00

http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,23530922-2,00.html?from=public_rss

but guess what...
we have learned everything about animal welfare and animal cruelty,
its not like we operate them under painful situation,
or we starve them while they are in dog colony...
they are taken good care from the beginning to the end..

its not like we perform all the surgical procedures without emotion..
if we dont have to, ofcourse we do not want to increase number of death..
but its society that expect us to do surgery with no mistake,
its society that expect from day one when we work as a vet we should know everything..

they dont eve know how much hard work are behind and
all the guiltyness and pain that we carry,
without knowing anything about how we feel...

they should stop judging just on what they see...

dear god..

2008-02-01T04:00:00.000-08:00

why r u so cruel to me...

why r u taking my best friend away from me again...

ive had so many separation that was out of my control...

but this one.. its too precious to lose...

we had a same goal since da beginning..aiming for same future.. we were the opposite yet the same...

why couldnt you help us...

missing..

2008-01-26T15:13:00.000-08:00

there are some people in life that

make you laugh a little louder,

smile a little bigger,

and just live a little better.

you

2008-01-20T03:52:00.000-08:00

One day, our wish will be the only thing I need...

If we stay together, we won’t have to be weak.
If I could always be with at the place you are, I wouldn’t need anything else.. But when you’re not here in this place, I see how my world stops turning
Some times, I sort of thought, that there’s no happiness, other than here...
Can people love someone, and then forge that person, and then love another person?
We couldn’t be together from the very beginning..so we will never be together at the end
Because we meet half way we don’t haveto bother with those useless efforts
I want to be with you, with you... Ive always wanted to be with you...
I’ll never forget you...
I embrace our moments in my heart...

so tru.

2008-01-15T21:49:00.000-08:00

The Ten Commandments of Dog Ownership
犬の十戒（犬の飼い主のための十戒）

1. My life is likely to last ten to fifteen years. Any separation from you will be painful for me. Remember that before you buy me.
私の一生は１０～１５年くらいしかありませんほんのわずかな時間でも貴方と離れていることは辛いのです私のことを買う（飼う）前にどうかそのことを考えて下さい。

2. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
私が「貴方が私に望んでいること」を理解できるようになるまで時間を与えてください。

3. Place your trust in me-it's crucial to mywell-being.
私を信頼して下さい．．．それだけで私は幸せなのです。

4. Don't be angry at me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your entertainment and your friends. I have only you.
私を長時間叱ったり、罰として閉じ込めたりしないで下さい貴方には仕事や楽しみがありますし、友達だっているでしょうでも．．．私には貴方だけしかいないのです。

5. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understand your words, I understand your voice when its speaking to me.
時には私に話しかけて下さいたとえ貴方の言葉を理解できなくても、私に話しかけている貴方の声で理解しています。

6. Be aware that however you treat me, I'll never forget it.
貴方がどれほど私を扱っても私がそれを忘れないだろうということに気づいてください。

7. Remember before you hit me that I have teeth that could easily crush the bones of your hand but that I choose not to bite you.
私を叩く前に思い出して下さい私には貴方の手の骨を簡単に噛み砕くことができる歯があるけれど私は貴方を噛まないように決めている事を。

8. Before you scold me for being uncooperative, obstinate or lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, or I've been out in the sun too long, or my heart is getting old and weak.
言うことをきかない、頑固だ、怠け者だとしかる前に私がそうなる原因が何かないかと貴方自身に問い掛けてみて下さい。適切な食餌をあげなかったのでは？日中太陽が照りつけている外に長時間放置していたのかも？心臓が年をとるにつれて弱ってはいないだろうか？

9. Take care of me when I get old; you, too, willgrow old.
私が年をとってもどうか世話をして下さい貴方も同じように年をとるのです。

10. Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say, "I can't bear to watch it, or, "Let it happen in my absence." Everything is easier for me if you arethere. Remember, I love you.
最期の旅立ちの時には、そばにいて私を見送って下さい「見ているのが辛いから」とか「私の居ないところで逝かせてあげて」なんて言わないで欲しいのです。貴方が側にいてくれるだけで、私にはどんなことでも安らかに受け入れられますそして．．．．．．どうか忘れないで下さい私が貴方を愛していることを。

happi(?) new yr..

2008-01-02T03:04:00.000-08:00

looking forward with da course- not the workload but the fact we get to do more stuff closer to becoming a vet.. :) hope i wont fail~.. but i duno if im looking forward this yr with all other stuff..

but feel like everything is decided by my course rite now..

keep on thinking if i was doing other courses.. why is vet so intense.. abit tired of always thinking abt vet...

i can stay in main campus.. ill be having so much more time off studying.. not having 10exams crammed in 3 weeks.. not to b isolated from other faculties.. having actual holiday without worrying abt working experience (17weeks!! dats like most of our holidays GONE.. )..

even where i live is onli becoz of da course... other wise therez no way i want to stay here..so far frm city.. so far frm everything.. so far frm da person i want to see every day...

cant be the same any more.. cant just pop up at his place randomly.. cant go ur place after uni.. cant go to uni together nemore.. cant study in library together.. cant come over when im crying.. cant come to my room in 5minutes..... i dunno wat to do frm this yr.. didnt kno every small things were meaning so much to me.. ill miss u so much..

:(

2007-11-11T10:59:00.000-08:00

im so sickkk... sick of studying... n sick of being sick during exammmm..

5cm

2007-10-13T22:04:00.000-07:00

午前三時君からの電話こんな遅い時間どうしたの? 「声聞きたくなっただけ」一言呟いてオヤスミ友達と食事してる時も帰り道地下鉄の中でも五分おきに君からのエンドレスなメール届いて二人会えない時だって僕は君を想ってるのに「5センチだって離れていたくない…」そう願う君が切なくて恋も仕事も友情もすべて現実にこなせる自信はまだないけど僕たちが向かう明日はきっと一つだと信じて
僕の想いは君から1ミリも離れてないよだから分かってほしい心に積もった5センチの不安さえ暖めてとかしてあげる出会ったばかりの頃の君は気が強くて弱さ見せなくていつも頑なに心閉ざしているように見えたけど僕の前で見せるあの笑顔寂しげに俯いた横顔初めて見る表情に特別な何かを感じた君が思うよりも僕は君を必要としていて右肩上がりに高まる気持ちどう君に伝えたらいいの? 予想出来ない天気図みたいな君の感情にドキドキさせられるけど僕たちが見上げる空はいつも一つだと信じて君のわがままや束縛　涙さえも愛しくてすべて抱きしめたいよ真っ白に重ねた5センチの願い叶えるように　約束するよ僕たちの気持ちが5センチ以上離れませんように…

:)

2007-08-19T05:13:00.000-07:00

its been exactly a year.
i mean it when i say you brought the happies tdays of my life.

so much has happened since then & we've both grown~

as much as we smiled together, we also cryed together...

u taught me how to recover from my fear of trusting sumone again...

i wont b scared to trust u... becoz u r da one who showed me how to...

thanx for saving me from da dark pathway i had been walking thru... :)

fated...

2007-08-11T03:56:00.000-07:00

運命を君は信じてる? それまでの何もかも全て
変えていってしまう様な一瞬の出会いo

目が合った瞬間に気付く触れ合って確信に変わる
だけどそこで人は一度足がすくむo

頬を打つ風がリアルさを伝えてる
これは幻なんかじゃないんだって ,そっとささやくo

届かない声だと思ってたo 叶わない夢だと思ってたo
今僕の目の前にいるのはねぇ他の誰でもなく君o

この道はどこへ繋がってどんな風に続いているのか
想像したって見当なんてつく訳もなく

強くありたいと思う程に心は
反比例する様に弱くなっていく気がして

泣きながら君の名を叫んだo 夢なら覚めないでと願ったo
僕の目の前にいたのはねぇ他の誰でもなく君o

愛してると言われた数だけ
愛される僕でいられたなら
愛してると言った数だけ
愛していたなら...o

届かない声だと諦めたo 叶わない夢だと諦めたo
ねぇ僕の目の前にいたのは本当の君だったのにo

no.more~

2007-07-21T21:55:00.000-07:00

winter holiday is over... :(

sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first
sometimes, the first thing you want never comes
but waiting is all you can do sometimes and
sometimes, waiting doesnt help at all...

+oil

2007-06-06T05:30:00.000-07:00

加油!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blue sky after rain..

2007-05-16T03:33:00.000-07:00

we always bump back into each other when we hit problems.. u know me too much.. so much more than other ppl and even myself.. 6yrs weve known each other... sound so long but feels so short.. cant believe weve been apart for 3yrs alreadi.. thot time will solve everything, but how come we are getting worse with this (is it coz we are geting oldddd? lol).. weve been taking different path for these few years, we know that we mite not even see each other anymore, we have had bf/gf of our own, we have tried to give up on each other.. but we also kno there wasnt a moment that we cud forget each other.. if i can be allowed to be honest.. wish we never left the same country.. if there is one thing i regret.. i regret that i cudnt forgive u earlier.. if something can be changed..... but nothing can be.. except we change ourselves.. i cudnt last time, but maybe i can dis time.. that person, i can realli be myself.. and may be i can open my heart as time goes by.. (sounds similar to sumone ?hehe) i wont let u down this time ge-ge :) ill b happi.. as happi as when u were there for me, and alot alot more happi so want u to be happi as well.. god bless u.. pray for u always..

study..study..studyyyy!!!

2007-05-15T07:34:00.000-07:00

housemates spending sunday in uni... >> rina/yi everyday afterskool date.. hehe*

aggg.. im so sick of equine influenza... so sick of thermoregulation... so sick of virology... so sick of STUDYING... so much to do in week 12...... and its just the beginning....exams starting next week... micro /viro prac exam... how come we are the only faculty so different from other courses.... i want normal uni lifeeeeeeee.....

happi&sad

2007-05-01T05:32:00.000-07:00

HAPPIIIIIIIII: softball season starts~
our first game is on sunday*

[1st match line up]

Catcher: Maria

Pitcher: Amanda

1st base: Becky

2nd base: Erina

3rd base: Julia

Short stop: Rach

LF: Erica

CF: Ren

RF: Asha

Bench to begin with: Tina, Snez

so i get to play my usual position :)

SADDDDDDDD: exam time table is out...
feels like swot vac everyday since last week...
can feel the stress building up gradually and panda eyes...
its juss too much........

may 21st-> vet pathology test
may 25th-> vet microbiology prac exam
may 25th ->vet public health assignment due
june 4th ->vet parasitology prac exam
june 6th->vet physio 2 theory exam
june 8th-> vet pharmacology & toxicology exam
june 12th-> animal health & management exam
june 14th-> vet pathology theory exam
june18th->vet microbiology theory exam
june20th-> vet anatomy theory exam
june21st-> vet anatomy prac exam

so... anyone else wanna complain other than vet 1st & 2nd year students? :(

我要想信...

2007-04-06T23:18:00.000-07:00

be simple & happi..
i dun wann try anymore.. i dun wanna try to change something that will never gonna change.. or think abt getting hurt, maybe ill juss do wat makes me happy now.. even if im getting used, even if im just a filler, or even if i know ill get hurt later... i think ill juss follow wat i want now... :)

i've never tried to count how long it's been since we met but I feel like spending more time with you. in a day that i needed someone, you always called... "ill come over there now," i am saved by those words. maybe it's because i've had a lot of experience with this kind of mess. so much that it's mysterious, i can feel you near me. i'm sorry for always relying on you, it's just that i can't do anything myself... more than anyone else, i'm praying that the dream you drew in your heart comes true. that you can be happy together with that person you love so much. when the things i've been storing up for so long suddenly come flowing out, you cried with me by my side, and we lauged... :)
countless as the stars, again and again we meet and hurt.. at that time i lost more than i gained, but it's different now. i'm always relying on you but, this time i'll do it myself... you're really not that strong, and so am i...i know i can't be alone.

最愛的朋友<3

2007-03-31T01:47:00.000-07:00

friday nite out~
lectures > prac > shopping > dinner > afl > supper...
waa... hard schedule.. but it was fun~~~*

4 more uni days till holiday.. finalli get to take rest!

「朋友是一輩子的。」我是很認同這一句話。人與人相遇的機率已經很少﹐能相遇進而成為朋友﹐並不需要繁複的計算程式。不是一週裡面見面日子的多寡﹐不是認識這人的年資有多長﹐當朋友是沒有累積獎金的。一切都是緣﹐搭上了便搭上了﹐命中自有注定。

>>「唉﹐真冤孽。」這句我也笑著跟朋友說過。

那麼﹐誰才是你真正的朋友???
我的分辨方式很簡單﹐當你能在介紹對方的時候。很自然或自豪地說一句「這位是我的朋友某某。」那一個便是了。
不要少看「我的朋友」這四個字的威力。當然也可以互換成為我的阿爸阿媽阿哥阿妹大佬細佬阿仔阿女的家屬匿稱。這些統共都是你的真朋友。
為什麼這樣說呢？你可曾有過跟人說﹕「這是我的"同學"某某」？或是同事﹐老師﹐團友﹐朋友的朋友﹐朋友的兄弟姊妹...　除了是當你要跟爸媽解釋這位是誰人以外。那種隔了一重的稱呼﹐ 便說明對方跟你有多接近。
以前好像也寫過一篇﹕你叫我什麼名字。裡面說的便是假如你現在叫我一個怎樣的匿稱﹐便希望會一直這樣的叫我。當關係改變了的時候﹐同樣的稱呼﹐便像是被下了魔法一樣﹐怎樣也再說不出口。所以﹐當你能介紹一個人為你的「朋友」時﹐那也有同樣的魔法印證了彼此的關係。
你是我沒有血緣但卻很有緣的兄弟﹐或姊妹﹐我的家人。
你會問﹐那也不過是"希望"能當上一輩子朋友。不竟一切都逃不過改變的一天﹐昨天是知己﹐今天可能反目。就算不至於如此極端﹐但是關係放著會慢慢變淡﹐淡如水。這情況彼彼皆是﹐你遇到過﹐當然﹐我也遇到過。
那還能說「朋友是一輩子的。」嗎？
相信我﹐是一輩子的﹐是一輩子的。就算淡了﹐就算反目了﹐就算成敵人了﹐都還是一輩子的朋友。曾經的相知相交﹐曾經牽手拼肩走過的街道。曾經聽過最心底的話﹐曾經看過最真摯的笑。曾經一起的喜怒哀樂﹐曾經的溫暖﹐還有傷痕。這些種種的「曾經」﹐抹不去﹐洗不掉。只是現在﹐把一切想跟對方說的話﹐都收進心底裡面而已...
>>「你這一刻還好嗎？」
>>「你現在在做什麼？」
>>「你還記得從前嗎？」
>>「你還會想見面嗎？」
相見無話﹐但在心裡﹐你還是我一輩子的朋友。其實﹐我們都是不記仇的﹐我們顧的是顏面﹐是一口氣。假如人生只有一次相遇的機會﹐。那麼﹐能重遇更是多麼的難能可貴...
那怕再見已是敵人﹐只要一切還好。
「唉﹐真冤孽。」我有時候﹐也會這樣子嘆息著。

21st*

2007-03-26T15:59:00.000-07:00

ふるえている私の手にはじめて君が触れて,
優しい気持ち,温かさにやっと気づいたんだ

閉ざした窓開ければ新しい風吹いた...o

笑って,泣いて,君と出会えて,
見える世界は輝きだした...
ひまわり揺れるタイヨウの下で
感じていた風を君を...o

信じるとこ、迷うことも立ち止まることも
全部私が今ココで生きてる答えかもしれない...o
モノクロの毎日が,色づいてゆくようにo

笑って,泣いて,君と出会えて,
続く未来は輝いていた...o
ひまわり揺れるタイヨウの下で
私のまま　明日を歌うよ...o
限りある日々を,止まらない時間を
どれだけ愛せるかな？愛せるよね?

君がいれば　光さえも　そらさないで...

笑って,泣いて,君と出会えて
続く未来は輝いていたo
ひまわり揺れる　タイヨウの下で
私のまま明日を...o

ありがとう...
伝えたい...
今ならいえるよo

過ごした季節も忘れはしないよ...o

三月。

2007-03-16T06:27:00.000-07:00

compare to last year this time... i think im in alot better condition.. (yah..more healthy too!) no family mess.. no friend mess.. no crying everyday... and no more being cheated & lied every single day with full of bullshits and talk-way-through-crap...

i dun think ive never been hurted by anyone as much as last yr and i hope i never will be. and i dun think i can ever love/trust anyone the way how i used to be.. ill always be afraid to see someone deeply.. ill always be scared of the time ill get betrayed. more than happiness, scared of being left behind, scared of being used, scared of getting hurt. how sad is dat? you love someone, but cant believe in her/him.. dont know wats going on in her/his mind.. i just forgot how to believe in someone. i never knew.. it takes this long to forget how you got hurt.. its always has been some i trusted and believed in that hurted me the most.. coz u care for them and they use ur caring, when they dont need u, then theyll just walk away from you.

all ive been wishing for was to trust someone once again. someone i can open my heart to. someone i can show all of myself to. someone that can heal my past wound. someone that i know will never chose to leave me. someone that i can forget abt being scared to love or trust.

now im gaining bak the confidence of myself trusting a friend. a good friend.. best friend, best cousemate buddy, my twin sister & my savior. its quite true, friendship doesnt change if its real.. whereas relationship changes. no matter how stupid or crazy or risky it is, friends can always be unrealistic and support each other. friends can understand when you talk, friends can be there for you when you need someone, friends are always the first to rely on.

i treasure every thing god has been giving me back.. yes, all the suffering last year has made me a bit stronger and weaker at same time.. but he knew i can live through that path he chose for me to take, he gave me a challenging path to make me learn something from the pain.. so, im realli happy now.. with particular someone i really like and care always being there for me... with crazy 2 housemates that brightens my days at home.. and with understanding friends always around me.. with best coursemates who we are surviving together (8am-5pm class!!)... :)

i wont ask for more..

i just want this to not get destroyed..

i dont want anyone leaving from my life anymore...
god bless.

i miss...

2007-01-18T22:47:00.000-08:00

i miss *summer*
i miss *blue sky*
i miss *beach*
i miss *friends*
..... i miss *you*

:)

get to see u soon~
cant wait cant wait.

tho it will be da last time.
hope it wont be too hard to say *good bye* to u.

:(

ake.ome*

2007-01-02T05:04:00.000-08:00

☆happy new year

&

akemashite omedetou gozaimasu☆

eve-eve.

2006-12-22T18:30:00.000-08:00

a person can apologize endlessly and even if you forgive them, sometimes you cant forget the pain they caused you. & it gets hard to trust anyone when everyone you ever open your heart to lets you down... i was fine until you walked into my life...

あの日, あの時, あの場所で君に会えなかったら僕らはいつまでも見知らぬ二人のまま・・・

enuf said.

happi xmas-eve -eve by da way :)

i.believe.

2006-12-21T04:26:00.001-08:00

この胸の中に隠れてる不安の渦、目の前にある自分の進むべき道はどれか
人に流されてた日々。そんな自分に「さよなら」。
i believe myself　信じることで、すべてが始まる気がするの。
i believe myself　暖かい光は間違っちゃいない。歩いていこう。
i believe...
偽りの中でうその笑み浮かべて、生きる人を幼き自分と重ねてみてため息つく。
どんな色にも染まらない「黒」になろうと誓った。
今目に映るこの広い空も、素直に生きるこの気持ちも。
i believe myself　信じることで、すべてが始まる気がするの。

最低なことしてくれたじゃん。おかげでまた人を信じれなくなった・・・
人じゃない、人の気持ち、人の言葉が信じれない。なんで？気持ちってそんなにすぐに変わるもの？気持ちがない言葉そんなに簡単に言えるものなの？最低だよ、、人の気持ち持ち遊んで。。。だから。。。顔も見たくないと思ったの・・・声も聞きたくない・・・会いたくなんてない・・・そう思うのに、実行できない・・・　そうやって思えば少しでもましになるかと思ったのに！会いたくて会いたくて仕方ないよ。一日話ができないだけで寂しくて寂しくて。。。気がないのならやさしくしないでえぇ・・・！！

早く忘れたい・・・人を信じれないままなんていや。。。。

...

2006-12-15T01:51:00.000-08:00

dont cry because its over.
smile because it happened.

:)

2006-12-12T00:22:00.000-08:00

miss you all...

shud.not.

2006-12-10T23:46:00.000-08:00

we shudnt have met that day,
we shudnt have talked that day,
we shudnt have stayed together that day,
we shudnt have ...

why is fate so harsh on us..

its gonna hurt both of us...

so maybe...maybe.

it was good that we are finally separated by distance...

its so ironic that...

it started away from melb...

and it ended away from melb...

bye.bye.melb~!

2006-12-06T15:14:00.000-08:00

going home☆ (at midnight today...)
melbourbe>>singapore>>shanghai

saw midori off just now............ asuka & kaori & keiko came too*
all of us stayed up until about 5AM packing or drinking...
and woke up at 7AM to see her off... SO SAD... shez not coming bak...
aggggg... i dun want this... when i come bak next year... no onez here!

last few dayz have been so much fun....!!
im sure ill miss everything!!
*shopping* *mango!!* *drinking* *breakfast pancake* *bruinswick.st.* *dinner* *hot.chocolate* *night.market* *shoya*

kana & kaori~

midori & maori~

alan & rina =)

aggg.. in few hours... im gonna be in freezing shanghai...!
and its getting hotter here... no summer again this year!!

how?

2006-12-03T15:14:00.000-08:00

been a while since we stopped seeing each other... maybe more than a week...? which never happened before...

cooked n came over for dinner.. (dinner was so nice by the way.. ) in the tiny room of GC.. laying around in the bed and~ sitting on the carpet~ maybe just chatti4was nothing special..

on and on until 3am non-stop talking... surfing the net... laughing abt random stuff... making fun of our teammates... telling each otherz high school life... so much we talked abt,

including when we met... the nite i stayed over... the nite we snack out from hotel... everything we shudnt have done and one thing that i tryed hold on to...

the time passes by so quick when im with u,

its too much of fun staying with u,

i cant hold in my feeling, its so hard to stop...

so how rina... wat to do now...? so how...?

あなたの気まぐれにあたしは一喜一憂浮いたり沈んだり・・・

悲しいことも、泣くこともあるでも嬉しいことも、楽しいこともある

だからあなたから離れられない・・・

でもはなれないとダメになる。私はもう耐えれないから・・・

byebye!

2006-11-25T17:32:00.000-08:00

yesterday was da IH kickout day... !!!
alot of ppl that i mite not able to see coz i wont be in the main campus..
and it hasnt realli hit me that im not comng bak to IH...
dunno why... its gonna be so different next year... hehe*
sent out hugh, neil kana, kaori, midori n maori..
aaron n liyen left today as well.. so sad... >___< IH feels so empty then ever... moved to GC.. but its so scaryyy..so dark and so quiet... and i need to shower upstairs coz the light in shower turns off automatically after certain period of time...

｡oﾟ｡★─☆｡oﾟ｡★─☆｡oﾟ｡★─☆｡oﾟ｡★─☆

｡oﾟ｡★─☆｡oﾟ｡★─☆｡oﾟ｡★─☆｡oﾟ｡★─☆

as time goes by, it gets harder to forget,
where can i leave my feelings behind...
i didnt expect have such a sad rebound
after such a big happiness...
the only thing i should do was to really
try turning my back to you... but i just cant...
your back i saw off for maybe the last time,
still take up my mind.. how long more..
how long more should i cry to forget about you...
要是我沒遇見你我因該是不會哭的...
但是...不能遇見的時候..再另外的眼淚流出的...

no.more.to.go.

2006-11-16T16:31:00.000-08:00

done for the first year!!

post exam party !!
organised by jack? but at yiz place*

[raul. jack. ronny. anton.
doris. rina. yi. adeline.
angel. ting. yiwei. kelvin.]
the best coursemate u can ask for ^____^
survived all the harsh schedule and exam stress!
all the best for our next *hell* 3 years!!

and then.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
to our november babies...
ting angel & yiwei~
since we didnt get to celebrate during
swot vac and exam period!

5down.1toGO!!

2006-11-12T22:12:00.000-08:00

okey okey.. onli 1 more..
but cannot get too excited YET..
need to studi quite hard for dis one...
cant wait till wednesday 12pm...!!!
cant wait to sleep 20+ hrz..lolx.
cant wait to stay up late for fun.
cant wait to go out with everyone.
cant wait to see u☆

monochrome

2006-11-01T13:20:00.000-08:00

surgery went well... so relieveddd!!
i was so worried i cudnt study the whole day..

exam starting on monday...
gd luckz all the vet 1st years...
we can do it* wo men jia you~ !!

randomenesssss

2006-10-28T18:51:00.000-07:00

weather in melb has been so weid..
up n down n up n down...
sometimes its lik 29 and sometimes like 15...
so is it still winter or summer?!?!

well well swot vac is starting....
so intense.. 5 more exams within 2weeks...
but i feel less stressful this sem.. somehow*
at least i dun have "that" problem anymore
sicne we are not even living in same place anymore
so happy abt it..^______^ hehe newayz...

praying for someone important to me being in hospital...
hez having surgery next week.. >____<
may god bless him with his richest blessing...
For I am convinced that neither death nor life,

*Neither angels nor demons,
Neither the present or the future,
Nor any powers,
Neither height nor depth,
Nor anything else in all creation,
Will be able to separate us from the
Love of God that is in Christ Jesus
[Roman 8:38-39]*

good luck on all exams &
assignments eveyone!!
+oil !!!

surprise!!

2006-10-18T02:27:00.000-07:00

mwahahaha...
our little surprise was successful yesterday!
jap disco dance part 2! yay*
with new pplz so abit modified version ♡♡♡
alot of ppl thot we were juss singing da [spritied away] song..

thanx to rei & dhivia for hiding our plan!
and thanx for neil & hugh being so tall helping us hide n change*

>>asuka. erina. keiko. maori. ayaka. grace & kaori<<
*sigh* none of us are coming bak to ih next year~

~kaori & kana ~♡~ rina & kana ~

me n alan... the softball & baseball second base rookies!!
hehe..we play same position lor*

me & kana~ happier than ever..
especially compare to the time during cafe!!
it was the shittiest time in our life.. now so different!

happi

2006-10-11T04:49:00.000-07:00

我...很高興的...
很幸福的...
不可以不再微笑...

with countless helps and precious support from friends*

me with pretty kana~ her hair was so nice leh~
we decided to go down for dinner..since its our last one*
so much similar things happened for us...
we went through alot together, and yes, we managed to hold ourselves together.
i dunno what i wud have been right now without her.. so much thanx to her*

last.day!

2006-10-10T06:27:00.000-07:00

haiyooo... first year is nearly ending... it was so quick...

today was our last prac in werribee ^___^
we were supposed to have another one on thusday..
but somehow got cancelles so........ A DAY OFF!!
for the first time this semester...! yayyyyyy*

eva. hillary. elaine& sayo.

calf waiting for his mommy.. so cute!

pregnant cattle...so biiiiiig stomach >_<

last time taking train back..
will miss the 1 hour trip of just random talks and sharing lunch*

with elaine & sayo.

im.over

2006-10-05T15:33:00.000-07:00

many ppl has been telling me i look more happier and 'lively' after a week in adelaide...
yes... defintely... for many many reasons...

released from suffering pain and stress completely... intensive days of assignments/ classes/ works ofcourse... and after all the ignorance by who i thout was my best friend and she continuously treating me as if i never exist in her sight... now i realise and knows the meaning of what other ppl told me about her: forget abt her, u got a better ppl to care for.. yah.. i guess its true, why shud i care for someone that doesnt care abt me.. and ofcourse since i had to still deal with someone who onli knows to break promises...

i was almost hitting da pt where i dun wanna deal with any of these crap...
and at the best timing aug06 came..
6nights 7 days of no bad things... no stress from studies... no pressures from anyone...

sure there were moments full of pressures and stress over losing, but come on.. its a sport competition, what it matters is that we did our best without giving up and got 3rd. what was important was we played by whole with strong bonds.. the respect between teammates and need for each other,its something that is slightly different from normal friendship.. sharing the same tears, sharing the same victory, sharing the same difficult times.. and at the same time, pumping up each other, encouraging and cheering each other.. i was saved by so many of "shake it off, erina. ".. being new to team, i was scared i wudnt be a much of help, but none of the seniors or even other freshers were like that..

i realli did recieve alot from this trip to adelaide... it was something that i wanted and wanted so badly for so long.. somewhere i can belong and at that place, fully be able to express myself and being accepted...

and someone who i can stay with and be happy with.. and let me out of this darkness, pull me out to the shine... someone that can accpet me... could be the one.. maybe someone that is able to open up my heart with no fear...

can i..?

wud i get hurt if i try to love u...?

maybe i will... like always... but i dunno whats so special abt u...

a.walk.to.remember.

2006-10-01T16:40:00.000-07:00

aug. adelaide. second base. baseball&softball games. rookie challenge. 6 nights. hundcuff game. cocktail party. team melbourne uni. sleep over. bus trips to fields. stanford plaza hotel. yummy thai food team dinner. chatting in the bus stop. freezing way back. drinking games. room 616. 13th floor. muscle ache. warm helpout. sneaking out at midnight. friday night out. unexpected things. walk to hotel. river side walk. changing color fountain. flu from the cold. endless smiles.

thanx.for.changing.me.

^______^

bak!

2006-09-30T15:52:00.000-07:00

yayyyy~ BRONZE MEDAL*

[ellen.rita.katie.georgia.jess.elisa.gwen
wongy.emo.amanda.rina.amy.kimmy]

congrats and great job melbourne uni softball team 2006!!
go melbourne!! wheeeee~

AUG @ adelaide was AWESoMeeeeEeEee...!!!!
time flew by sooo quick...
one week wasnt enough!! wish AUG had gone for longer~

i RE-realized i realli do like softball...
havent played since i left america and high skool..

our 5-star hotel was so nice~ bubble bath everyday lolz..
free transportation n free clubbin/drinks for all of us athletes
and different social events every night~
lots of funnnnnnn~!! meeting new ppl~ playing softball~ party hard hehe~
yah...everything was so fun and greatttt ^____^
hope i can be on the team again next year! must practice harder* hehe~

[ photo time !!! ]
didnt take that much photo...
busy playing coz i got to play in evey single game*

rita & me leaving melbourne airport*

our 5-star hotel accomodation provided!! so nice!!

jenny alreadi getting drunk on da first night~

day 1: me, rita and wongy*

waiting for our bus... ^ o ^

rita & jess at melb.uni cocktail party~ think it was at the tonic bar?

kim, me & amy~ @ cocktail party~ everyone was half high??

went to clubbing after the melb uni thing... gwen, el, wongy n jenny :)

rita, rina, el, gwen n wongy... haha...

softball accreditation.. we need to get "tatooed"!!

in the dug out... rina, jess n emo~

okey.. lots more of photoz to go... but
i betta get started on my study..
since ihavent done a SINGLE studies while i was in adelaide...
2assignments... 2exams coming up...
how to handle this!! lolz...

off.to.adelaide!

2006-09-23T16:47:00.000-07:00

finally out of melbourne... out of IH..
out from everywhere and everything
ive been hating to be at..

off to adelaide!!! wheee~
it will b place with no bad memories but only a good onez ^___^

---->wish us luck!
---------------------------------------------

4.more.

2006-09-21T05:31:00.000-07:00

number: 15 & position: 2nd base ↑↑↑

4 more days till adelaide~
happi for 2 reasons*

^_____________^

depression.again

2006-09-21T03:23:00.000-07:00

want to kno why u cant stick to one person...
its not because u were wrong... or u made mistake...
or its definately not because god was mean to u...
its because.. u never loved anyone...
u never make choice.. but just accepts what lies in front of u..
whether u think its right or wrong doesnt matter...
u cudnt love anyone.. but just hang arnd someone that loved u...

u chose partner according to ur need at that instance..
never saw me in ur future... even once...
so i was needed... but was never loved...

dats why ur feeling can switch so easily...
not caring who ur partner as long as she is there...
doesnt care who.. but cares for the presence...
so i wasnt the chosen one...

u cant have what you threw away...
i was there... always there for u... always...

just because u chose to walk away from me,
doesnt mean u can come back when u chose to...
sorry but i have a feeling too...
and i cant chose anything for u..
u made a choice... just hang on to it..

u cant have 2 things at once...

yay!holiday!!

2006-09-16T09:55:00.000-07:00

my spring break....

.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*

FRIENDS!!!

saturday softball at princess park*

.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*

FOOD!!! and cooking ^_______^

decided to cook dinner at ritaz place...
so much food... was so full~
had pasta, chinese rice cake, tofu, and
bah kuh teh (?) and honeydew sago~

.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*

STUDY!!! i hope i can...

2assignments due after the break...
1 test and 1 prac exam coming...!!

.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*

and most importantly.....
UNI GAME IN ADELAIDE!!! for softball team!!

looking so forward~!

friday.

2006-09-08T23:24:00.000-07:00

raul>rina>yiwei>jack>anton

agg... motion sickness and neck pain...
and im so not getting drivers license...
everyone that was there shud know the reason...

improving.

2006-09-07T17:10:00.000-07:00

guess who...

...not you.

september.

2006-09-02T20:30:00.000-07:00

september...
its spring <3

time to let go...
dont bother...
lets forget...
i can be me...

自信を持って☆
今やれることだけをがんばろう☆
あせらず、欲張らず☆

bluebird

2006-08-28T00:32:00.000-07:00

used to think... ppl can change...
ppl can change for sumthing/someone they love...
but guess i was wrong.. ppl wont change...
once a cheater, always a cheater...
once a lier, always a lier...
as long as they are happy of their life...
they wont change... i realised...
u cant change da past... its da same...
cant change someone even how hard u try...

fairy tale doesnt hav happy ending...
story just ends where its happy...

dun start the story then ull never have ending...

happi.bday*

2006-08-26T23:44:00.000-07:00

otanjyo-bi omedeto sayo!
may all ur wishes come true & god bless u <3

prac...

2006-08-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

last friday...had prac in werribee...
class starts at 9... so needed to take train @ 7:41am...
so early... but we were so high... taking photoz...
so many times...haha...

kin tying out.. but very blur...

most of da asian gurls in class... hehe..

with everyone... *smile*
[carol.ada.hillary.]
[elaine.rina.jennifer.cinthia.eefung.junjia.sayo.rita]
[kin.doris.jenny.lokyi]

vet.bbq

2006-08-06T10:20:00.000-07:00

~~~~~happy moment \(^O^)/ few ppl alreadi left tho~
back [melvin. anthony. yiwei. joanna. yi.ilynn. hero]
front [kim. rina. kelly. carol. michelle]

still winter... still cold... but we still had bbq! hehe*
lots of funnnnnn*
for first 30 min or so..
we couldnt figure out how to turn the fire on..
but but... me n yi successfully got to get fire going! yay!
too much meat ah... i onli wanted salad n chips.. haha..
i smell like smoke/meat for a while..stinky~

last.wk.of.holiday

2006-07-16T19:04:00.000-07:00

one more week of freedom left... oh noooooo...
another semester full load of work... *sniff sniff*
raul is bak altho i still havent seen him...
anton coming bak on monday morning yay*yay*

must enjoy while it lasts ^____^ hehe so..........

>>> yi& rina

>>> yiwei, yingjie, jack

this is my grandpa...

lesson.2.

2006-07-14T22:11:00.000-07:00

in da past half year, ive become to learn that real friendship is not measured by the amount of time spent together but by da effort and that is put into friendship. its those friendship that go beyond the meaningless gossips of *any new boys/gurlz in ur life?* to talk about ur ambitions and ur goals. its the friends who support u every step of the way, give u an outsider's perspective, and that share common interests with u that really makes da friendship worthwhile. its the friends who, despite how long u havent seen each other, everything is da same. there isnt an awkward silence while one tries to think of sumthing to talk abt when all the gossip is done. the friends who arent afraid to b brutally honest with u even though they kno it may offend u, they are merely looking out for your best interests and whats best for u. the friends who understand u dun need to spend every free moment with them for them to b a good friend. the friends who u can still b silly with even though u may not seen them in long time.

its not based on da number of times uve hung out with them, its not based on the number of things they know about u, its based on the ones you go beyond that to show u that they geniunely care for u. the ones who show u through action or words. the ones who treat u like family. the ones who treat u like their own brothers & sisters because u mean that much to them. those are the friendship worth having.

and to those friends...i cannot thank u enough for dat. despite wat has happened in da past few months, i cannot thank u enough for da love n care u hav shown me.

-incomplete in ourselves, we desire whatever we think is beckoning to complete us. God alone needs nothing outside himself, because He himself is the highest and the only lasting good. so all objects we desire short of God are as finite and incomplete as we ourselves are and therefore, disappointing if we make them the objects of ultimate desire-

lesson.1.

2006-07-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

i learned my lesson.

if you,
dun like anyone
dun love anyone
dun trust anyone

then you,
wont get hurt
wont need to cry
wont be betrayed

gd.old.mem.

2006-07-09T08:47:00.000-07:00

remember naoko from last yr?
she came to melbourne for da holiday=>!!
was so nice to see sumone coming bak visiting..
she was still a typical *naoko* hehe.. good memories*

----------kana, me, naoko & sheanee <3

busy...?

2006-06-20T00:05:00.000-07:00

its holiday.. and been busy in a different way-*

changed my room ALOT...
wanna erase everything possible...
new arrangement...
new pictures...
new posters...
i want new bed sheet so i can throw away the old one..
yay.. at least for holidays, ill feel better that its different from sem1!!
took me like one whole day to tidy up =]
all i need is new place to stay now...*

been out everyday since saturday...
and been to so many *new* place ive never been to <3 which is good...
proves that i didnt do anything last yr.. other than staying in the college...

yi took us to IKEA --v we only bought..cups and cards haha..
but it was fun lor ^____^
and then we discovered this really cheap supermarket on..
franklin street? yi bought so much stuff that we had to carry the bag together..
heavy heavy*

[::: thanx yi!! :::]

then..ofcourse world cup ...
so sad japan got no more hope alreadi-!
but its still nice that grandpa n mommy comes to accompany watching*

[::: me& grandpa ::: ]

[::: calm mommy & her hyper daughter :::]

[::: friends that i can never thank enough:::]

today- went out to shark fin house (?) for raul leaving*
with..yi, anthony, yiwei, jack n raul~*
and then we went to this really really nice coffee shop !!
very very veryyyyyyyy nice lor.. me & yi were both liked it alot*
stayed there for like..3-4hours chatting n playing game..
its da last time till next sem starts that 6 of us will b together meh...

...raulll hope u have safe flight bak ^ ^ gonna miss u daddy!!

sem1.

2006-06-17T01:00:00.000-07:00

started.off.crying+ended.off.crying..

maybe im not allowed to live happily...

always have to be surrounded by ppl that will
open everything i wanted to close...
everytime scar starts to heal..
just have to give another cut to make it worse...
and when it comes to the time to get healed...
another cut will slip in and bleed again.. why...

juss leave me alone and i can fix myself....

there is no "i can help u to heal"..guys are all the same..
they never gonna change.. they are not to trust..
i hate myself not trusting..
but i cross my limit.. i cant do it nemore..

guess.wat!

2006-06-13T22:53:00.000-07:00

things i wanna do after exam....
- eat ice crean with yi
- sleep 20hrz straight
- jogging/ running
- cut jackz hair
- eat proper meal
- play badminton
- watch movie
- koko black!!
- watch raulz jap drama

try to be happIER.... ^_____^cant wait*

FINISH WITH SEMESTER 1 OF 1ST YEAR!
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

abit.of.break..

2006-06-09T02:24:00.000-07:00

3.done...5.MORE.TO.GO!!

1.more.week.to.suffer..

but we are actually all pretty dead lor...
our muscle is not functioning...
feel so weak.. cant even hold spoon...

oh well... understandable since...
we've been taking turn to sleep...
sleep when someone wakes up...
drinking so much coffee+redbull...
caffeine overdose seriously... lolx..

but thank lord... we are all still surviving..
give us blessing for one more week...
we all need your help...

i shud thank all these ppl... i luuuuv u all*
think i cudnt study as much with out them!

jack *grandpa*

raul *daddy*

yi!!!! *mommy*

exam!

2006-05-26T14:38:00.000-07:00

no more update till exam iz ova~*
yi is staying over at my place for next wks to isolate herself to force to study~
and ill do da same... study study! and wait till da day to
go clubbing with my vet friends on da last day of exam!!

good luck for exams for all da melb uni students*
and especially for vet science 1st years...

2 exams DONE... 6 more to GO! jia you!!

crazy 6 vets...

2006-05-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

the past 3 days.. has been.. crazy 3 days with..

yi + yiwei + anthony + jack and raul*

dAy 1 ::: surprise ! anthony & elsaz birthday
we started the cooking right after our exam-
cooked TOOOO much that we cudnt finish it lor..

mitarashi dango* its jap dish... hehe

piles of sushi we rolled--
thot we didnt have enough so ordered pizza as well... lol

the cake we got for anthony... with 21 candles and
extra...19 candles hahaha...

birthday boy anthony & birthday gurl from yiz church*

the drinks >__________<>

drinking timeeeee!! >>>
played sooo many random drinking games...
and then we did *truth or dare* for the last game until around 2:30AM...
after that.. we kinda all passed out n slept thru...haha

with yi~ my holy holy sister ^_______^
thanx for all the *questions* u asked that nite... haha

we were drunk that we all decided to stay at yiz place...
guys slept on the floor n me&yi got the sofa bed mwhahaha*

jack got knocked out first from cowboy shots haha
then we drew stuff on his cheek with lipstick =P

------------------------------------------------

dAy 2::: RAD prac from 11AM --> 6:45PM!!
the next morning... we all woke up at around 7:30AM...
then i left to go bak to IH to shower n get ready...
6 of us met up again after like 3 hours... hahabut this time..
not to get drunk but to cut a dog >_______< *while having hangover*

yi, yiwei, jack n raul -* looking very professional!

rina n yi with the dog... aiyoo... it was so tiring...

raul being random at restaurant we went for lunch~*

and jack too... lol

here are the 4 *ungentlemen*guys... haha
always leaving me n yi behind!

------------------------------------------------

dAy 3 ::: AHM take home exam & shopping ~*
so... at 11 am again.. (how nerd are weee?!?!)
met infront of state library to do the take home exam..
its worth 20% of our course lor... must take serious*

then went out to lunch... good food good food =]
afterwards.. we were supposed to study wat...
but end up shopping for my phone and anthonyz bday present..

got new phone! sony z3001 or sumthing like that hehe! so happi*

thnx

2006-05-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

memories are wonderful things
if you don't have to deal with the past...
it get's hard to trust anyone when everyone,
you ever opened your heart to
--let's you down ...

thanx for messing me up..
thanx for huting me...
thanx for locking my heart...
thanx for shutting me off...
thanx so much for everything.....

so.much.happening..

2006-05-12T05:50:00.000-07:00

badminton finals yesterday~ and guess wat!!
won 1st place!!
very close score... 3-2 and won and my game *gurlz doubles*
were the last one to decide... so much pressure*

but it turned out good~~ GO I.H.~~~~*

wheeeeeeeeee ^____________^

okey.. raulz photo from the pre-view night*

our starting pose~

with all da vet ppl*
~yiwei * jack * rina* yi * anthony* raul~

----------------------------------------------------------------

cafe international 2006* the nite itself! so nervoussss..

me & grace~* so much make up eh..?

me n kana~*

rina, kaori & asuka~*

edwin & aaron trying to immitate our dance movement...

smile everyone =] cute photo*
asuka, kaori, grace, kana, ayaka & tracy*

me standing in between two mommy ^___^ kim & kana..haha

pre-view.night.

2006-05-04T16:43:00.000-07:00

yay* pre-view night is ova*

thanx for all who came to watch*
hope u like our dance ^____^

moire pix to come.. its on raul n yiweiz camra*

:: raul * yi wei * jack * anthony ::

and yi* who came for 2 hours early! and me with dance make up*

how great is our god...

god bless*

for u.

2006-04-24T22:45:00.000-07:00

A memory lasts forever, never does it die.
True friends stay together and never say goodbye!

bbq night with vet family ^______^
thanx yi wei for organising and
thanx anthony for driving!

jack, yi & rina
kelvin & anthony

me n yi together like always =]

jack & raul while cooking!

hehe cute photo of kim, jack n anthony*

now is the time.

2006-04-22T18:45:00.000-07:00

now is the time to stand up...
now is the time to go...
now is the time to reach out...

easter holz.

2006-04-13T00:43:00.000-07:00

happi happi easter break everyoneeeee =)
study hard & have fun!

one happi vet family after hourz of crying hehe...
sorri for my tiny eyez... was swollen k?? hehe

yi... gonna miss u---
cant wait til u come bak from easter camp > <
need to work on our SARS report... n farm!! agg!
have fun @ camp tho- juss relax and sleep well!
we both need that hehe *hugz*

god bless!

rina

birthday surprise 1

2006-03-24T05:57:00.000-08:00

friday! and... it was yi's house warming party...
it was fun lor.. good to see vet people not studying..haha
makes me feel abit better! and then she had this surprise for me*
becoz we are so "busy" on our weekdays. (hahaha)...
they did birthday surprise for me instead of monday ^_____^
so happi happi... never thought i would get this!
like rita said... its my first birthday with vet-mate who i will be living
life with for next 4 years... thank you everyone.. luv u all!

drunk rina & yi...
my best friend & vet buddy here.. hehe ^ ^

me n my cake~

me n kelvin* thanx for the melon...

hillary & yi..

thank u--> kelvin, eva, claudine, yi, brenda, hillary, anthony & jack/rita (photographer!) hehelooking forward for everything that will be lying in front of us.. god bless <3

(agg! i miss my brown hair... haha its red highlighted & with red extension now..)

haro

2006-03-20T03:28:00.000-08:00

becoz so much have changed..
this is my new place.. =]